Monday, August 22, 2005

spinning in circles.

Remember childhood, when spinning in circles until you got dizzy (or being spun by someone else) was pretty much the best part of your life? Nothing could top that feeling of not knowing which way to walk, and giggling as you toppled over.
Fast forward to today. Your best friends are scattered all over the U.S. instead of meeting daily in your back yard. You pray that things will settle down and that the spinning is only a temporary part of being an adult. Where to live, where to work, where to go to church, how to fit all of the important stuff in while still paying the bills. Every move seems to be the last one, every job seems more permanent than the last. Commitments change and shift based on what you are able to fit in, not what you really want to be doing. But all you're really doing is spinning. The feeling you longed for as a child now makes you sick as you try to find balance. Struggling to make everything thats important fit with all the other stuff.
I'm ready to stop spinning. Find a place to fit in, to live, to work, to volunteer. And for it to not change every 9-12 months. That would be totally awesome. Lets work towards that, ok?
and could all my friends please come play in my backyard so that the rest of the world doesn't matter? just for like an hour? FANTASTIC-i'll see you there!

1 comment:

Paul said...

That was really well written and very sweet!