viruses abound.

well dudes. I got some crap on my computer that makes fighting these crazy pop-ups really not worth the energy to post, but it's been a week, so I suppose its time. to start with

MERRY CHRISTMAS.

Next, we visited rachel and joel for joels birthday and that was delicious fun. They will be here friday night late to celebrate the holidays.

Also, VBS is over, and apparently, while I planned for 60 I didn't ever need to because Megan confessed to me this week that they had between 25-30 last year--not 50. I averaged 40 or so, so thats great. Also, the Live Nativity was a sucess (no ice or freezing rain).

this week, the harmony ringers (my kids bells) will be playing at Northwestern middle school. It's gonna be fun, because then we get to stay for the christmas parties afterwords :) then thursday we have musical rehearsal and friday is the musical where i am doing the sermon...yay for me. i love my job when i actually get to spend time with my kids.

last friday, jen and i (thats my friend) played in the moonwalk after VBS and then went over to adams to watch poker night. it was amusing if nothing else because of all the random people who were there, including jeremiah the pretzel time guy who brings us smoothies.

Katie (our music director) got me a nativity for Christmas as kind of a joke, and it pretty much made my day. then I worked and jen and i took apart a projector trying to fix it, and while we didn't actually fix it, the problem seemed to not be so bad. i think its our ghost fred. then youth group, where the kids and scott played in the moonwalk. then scottie and i came home and i watched the wizard of oz. i fell alseep-so we didn't go see lemony snicket. but then we made a gingerbread train and watched harry potter...that was pretty tasty fun, but a little harder than we imagined.

My wonderful husband.

There are some people in the world who sometimes think my husband isn't the greatest guy. They even perhaps sometimes blame him for pain and misfortune that aren't necessarily his fault. To these people I say--SCREW YOU. you know who you are. He's kind, forgiving, and generous. He takes crap from people (including me all of the time) and is no less giving or thoughtful because of it. He aspires to the best in everyone, looks to the positive and hopes for friendships instead of lies. However, he is constantly betrayed and if I'm the bad guy for standing up for him..then I am proud to be the bad guy, because no matter what--in his heart, deep down, he never wants to hurt anyone. He tries to keep peace, and create meaningful connections between other people. I love him absolutely. Everyone knows that the past isnt this bright glowing thing we reflect on, but the reality is we love each other more not less, and are closer than ever due to my indiscretions. Yup. I love him. Totally and completely. You can't even imagine. He even cleans the house and gets me taco pop in the night. Sigh. I couldn't ask for anything more. He is by far more forgiving than I will ever be. Perhaps that's part of the reason for this post--but the real true reason is to let everyone know how much he means to me.

Today is the one month anniversary of my uncles death. Scott and I went and saw Christmas with the Kranks (I cried--but the book was better) and Oceans 12 (I didnt get it) and he made me smile. I also had a cherry frost icee from target with Jen. I'm thankful for new friends. She consoled me over icees as I relayed my sadness-its so nice to finally have a friend.

Tuesday we get to see rachel and joel. YIPEE!!! I am so happy. (PS-today is joels birthday)
Anyway, Scotties great. And yeah. Im lucky.

Thanks, Lexa

Stolen from my pal dax-shes having a baby, to help get the juices flowing for everyone (serious hint to those who never post anymore). Also, its been a really long time since I've done one, so why not?

9 things I want to do before I die
1. Have children (at least one)
2. further my education (christian ed or psychology)
3. go on a cruise
4. Be ordained as a Children's Pastor in the Church of the Nazarene.
5. get out of debt-seriously
6. own a house
7. Read and understand at least one philosophy book
8. visit europe..(get over my flying over the ocean fear)
9. write a book

8 things I'm wearing
1. Contacts
2. pink hoodie
3. Underwears -cute christmas star underwear to be exact!
4. Plaque on my teeth (I need to brush)
5. Deodorant
6. pony tail holder
7. wedding ring
8. favorite jeans

7 things on my mind
1. moving away, specifically praying for crown point
2. quitting my hell job at church
3. going back to school
4. visiting family next week.
5. my head itches.
6. i hate dry skin
7. my parents are on their way home from vacation right now

6 things I touch every day
1. Scottie
2. sneakers
3. the couch
4. A keyboard
5. my purse
6. the fridge

5 things I do every day
1. kiss scottie
2. watch tv
3. Complain about working at church
4. check email
5. put on deodorant

4 songs on my mind
1. Santa Claus Lane -Hilary Duff
2. Smallville theme
3. Bring it On -from our childrens musical
4. Lord Move, or Move me -FFH

3 things I think of when I wake up
1. do i really need to shower
2. do i have to go to church today?
3. i can sleep for 9 more minutes

My 2 favorite foods
1. Taco bell pop
2. the chicken at don ponchos

1 person I love more than any other
1. its really hard just to pick one person...especially with everything happening in my family lately--obviously scottie because he's amazing...but everyone in my family ties for a close 2nd

This cute little survey was way harder than I imagined, or its just too early in the morning. anyhow--have a great day all!

there'll be no sad tomorrow?

Today I woke up unhappy. This is not unusual. I hate kokomo. I made some potato soup, scottie and I had lunch and then he scampered off to work. Work. I should go there too. I need to get some things to glue for friday. And I need to call some volunteers about friday. I just wish we didn't have to do VBS. Its a great idea...but we don't have any materials to use--i had to come up with stuff just like..ta-da. Stupid. I got 30 hours again at the theatre. Thats good since its one of the few things i look forward to.

Scott knows its getting bad. he brought me flowers last night to make me cheered. It worked a little. I love him, and i know that its hard for him to see me so sad when there isnt anything he can do about it. Things at his job are getting worse too--he now has to work between 3 different houses to try and get 40 hours. Its crazy stupid, and I wish there was something I could do to make him feel better about it. He finally found a job he doesn't mind so much--and they just keep shuffling him around.

It just seems like things won't ever get better. We pray a lot about crown point, about getting out of here, about going anywhere else. Today, I felt like calling joel and rachel to see if they could get us jobs--but with all of our bills, those jobs just wouldn't cut it. I feel like we're drowning. THere isn't anyone at all here that we can confide in, anyone to share our hopes or our fears with. Its incredibly hard. The only bright spot in this day will be that its tuesday--and thats a quality tv day for me (veronica mars, SVU, and judging amy). I haven't watched this much tv in years...like since probably the summer of my 6th grade year. ALL I DO is watch tv. Maybe its my fault that things suck so badly here. If only there was more to hope for.

Deck the halls...

Well, thanksgiving was fantastic! Yummy food, fun with friends...it was different, and sad at times, but still outstanding overall. And the best part-the day after thanksgiving its time to decorate for christmas! YAY!! we decorated our tree last night. It was much fun. I was supposed to work until 8pm tonight, but Jen let me leave because I have a cold. Hoorah! Not that I have a cold, but that I got to come home and lay on my couch to feel better. At work this morning we got out all of the christmas decorations. apparently, we were supposed to get permission before decorating, but we just couldn't wait...so we just went ahead. Our theatre gets about as much attention from corporate as say...oh, what can you compare with NONE? Anyways. Holly Jolly. I was excited. It was fun. I also did some preliminary pricing of what I want to get scott...hmm...time to go lay on the couch!