Friday, May 04, 2012

I get it Jesus!

One of my favorite quotes all through college went a little like this: God is always speaking.  We must choose whether to listen to his whisper, or wait for his brick.  That's how the last 5 months of my life have felt.  I've been listening, and listening, and listening.  Yet, God still has more for me.

 I don't listen long enough, or something, because I feel like he's constantly smacking me with a brick.  It's ok.  I know He means well.  He is, after all, God.  For the past few weeks, I've just wanted to scream, "I GET IT JESUS--NOW BACK OFF!"  This attitude may actually be the reason for the bricks.  I acknowlege that and continue to tantrum.  I've listened.  I've waited.  I continue to do so...anxiously, of course. 

Most days, I just want life to be normal.  To return to a state of being from this time last year.  I know thats boring, and thats not the life God designed for me...but it would be nice, for a little while.  I actually began praying, and felt at peace with the idea last October that this next year was going to bring terrific things to my family.  I didn't realize that in those prayers, and in that peace, life would look like it does today.  I look forward to sharing more details about our journey soon, but for now, just pray that God maybe finds some foam bricks :)

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