Thursday, November 10, 2005

I LOVE MY JOB.

At least today. So, Chipolte is opening Friday down in campustown. We know this because it's just a few blocks from the courthouse. So today they gave away free burrittos and sodas to anyone who stood in line. So our lunch break-Cherylanda, Arnetha, Allison, Valerie and I went and stood in line. we were in line ONE AND A HALF HOURS. Then we took our food back to the office and sat in the break room for another 40 eating. FREE TASTY GIANT CHIPOTLE BURRITTOS. It was fantastic. Of course, not all days are like this--some are much harder--like today christy had to give CPR to someone who had a stroke during a meeting. but today for we was terrific. So bring on the stress--as long as once in awhile i can go out to lunch and de-stress with my social work crew.

In other news: quiz practice last night was interesting. tried something new. don't think it worked too well. i need games for friday night--please help!!

I guess its time to watch so much needed television. Or i could memorize Romans 10. I've got time for both i think.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

1:17 AM

I should be in bed. 17 minutes ago. I just finished up the stuff I need for tomorrows quiz practice and should be heading off to bed. I sent an email to a few people reminding them about the quiz and thanking them for their willingness to help out. Then I started thinking about the ever changing dynamic of relationships and read Leahs post.

I think about the people who were my best friends 3 months ago, 3 years ago, and 6 years ago. So many things can change a relationship. I have gained and lost and even regained several friends over the past 6 years. Like April--who was in my wedding--and I haven't seen since her wedding. Or melanie--who was one of my best friends/enemies/and is now one of my close friends again-all for different reasons and purposes. Or Rachel-who is now in Maryland. We're still wives/sisters, etc...but things are different. Not because she's far away, but because a lot of our commonalities have changed. Would I call her with a problem, sure. But I would probably call Christy or Allison first. Not because I don't love her--because I totally do--but we don't know the details of each others lives like we did 6 months ago-we're both busy, and its not a priority--even if it should be. Then there's Erika and Stevi--who can pick up right where we left off and we realize that our lives are busy, and different, and that doesn't change our friendship. I have friends I talk to once a year (congrats to all the ladies expecting little ones) and friends who get their feelings hurt if we don't talk more than once a week. I am sure that sometimes I sound like a bad friend, distracted by other things and unable to talk for long. And sometimes I feel like that towards others at times because of their lack of attention to me. I think part of that comes from wanting to know we are loved and valued by the people that we care so much about. A confirmation of friendship, knowing that people care about how long i cleaned the house and why my grandma is in the hospital. Unoconditionally. Even if things change, that in the end, I can count on someone to love me and value me.

Anyway, I think its so cool that God made so many ways for us to be in relationship with each other. That we can have so many different types of friends. I know I don't tell my friends nearly enough how much they mean to me. I don't say thank you when someone calls to see whats going on in my life, and I blow off things that I don't think I have time for. It's not sincere to do it in my blog (or so I have been told). But to all my friends who read this, and those who don't--please know that you are loved and important and I do have time for you--the day to day stuff is just as important as the crisis stuff--i'm also sorry I (like most of you) don't have countless hours to always hear about the day to day stuff--but it is important. Your lives are important. Each and every one of you. Please know today that above all, you are loved and valued today by me.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

its been awhile.

a lot of nothing has happened in the past week. My grandma's trailer caught fire (no real damage i'm told) but shes in intensive care for smoke inhilation. Thanks to everyone who sent up thoughts and prayers. The highlight of the week being my husband and i went to dinner and rented movies and had coffee at borders last night. Other than that, its been lots of work (which i really enjoy), went shopping with Christy twice, got to go to quiz practice and see my lovely quizzers, yeah. a bunch of stuff like that. It seems so strange that i was so lonely in danville when rachel and joel still lived here and now that we live just 15 minutes from champaign i'm very rarely lonely. Of course, i drive to danville twice a week to see the quiz team, but it seems like theres something going on just about every night. Tomorrow scott and i are going to kankakee to see my grandma (who may or may not be out of the hospital) and then to watch chicken little at the meadowview. Last week I went trick-or-treating in the rain with Mel and Malyssa (and the kids of course).

I think that Allison and I are going to work out on tuesday and thursday this week. Then friday my quizzers are sleeping over, saturday is the quiz, sunday is practice and packing for nashville and after work next monday we leave for nashville for a week for the youthworker convention. It's gonna be fantastic. I feel a little bad that we don't have time off to go see rachel and joel in their new house, but we've committed all of our off days to volunteering for camps, quizzing, and youth specialties. I'm sure that sometime in the new year we'll get out there...its just such a long trip to only be able to go for like a day and over 100 dollars in gas. I don't think it matters too much--they're happy there and we're happy here so life is probably as it should be. If i continue on this subject the ramble will just get worse...so i guess i'm gonna go have some lunch.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

studying, really.

once upon a time there was a girl who had to pass a test to keep her job, but instead of studying she decided to post on her blog. anything to avoid the endless stream of social work items she needed to review. After a study party where she played on IM with an old friend, and dinner with her new friends she found herself trapped in her room with only her study books and Grey's Anatomy. She never watched the show before, but this seemed like the best time to start. it was about a bunch of people in a train accident-which brought her back to her days at ONU (where she also studied social work for awhile) and the train accident in bourbonnais. It also brought back memories of 8th grade and the accident that ended her young friends life. Saddened by these memories she glanced over at her book and began to read about social work.

In other news, in 24 hours this will all be over and i will be at home!! Yay! i get to see mel's baby tomorrow (maybe i'll post pictures) and eat lunch with my grandma and most excitedly--i get to go to bed next to my husband. :) YAY! YAY!

of course, this past week has meant more tasty food-cheesecake factory, california pizza kitchen, and culvers are just a few of the yummy foods we ate this week. starting tuesday its all veggies and water detox for the entire week. nothing but healthy healthy foods and water until nashville. in 30 minutes allison and i are going to go on a caffiene fun run. then its time for serious studying. or maybe i should pack. whatever. i guess i should try and focus.

Saturday, October 22, 2005

stolen from lexa-my favorite shower buddy

I am at home. Relaxing. In one hour, Im leaving for a quiz event that apparently i am running. Good luck on that one. I am sad today. For many reasons. The main one being that an old friend is going through a rough time that i knew nothing about. I suck. But know that you are in my prayers..and if i can help, i will.

Other than that, its too bad I don't even really get to see my husband while i am home. Oh well, its only one more week. and nashville is only a month away. then its time for fantastic holidays :)


A-Zs of Me (this is the stolen item/time waster while i print questions)


A ~ Age you got your first kiss - real kiss--summer after 7th grade. Oh, dustin.

B ~ Band listening to right now -new david crowder-- samples from website.

C ~ Crush - Michael Rosenbaum

D ~ Dad's name - Mike

E ~ Easiest person to talk to - besides my cute husband--Jeremy

F ~ Favorite TV show - depends on the day--lately-CSI

G ~ Gummy worms or bears - bears-they're original.

H ~ Happiest memory - this is way too hard--my recent happiest memory-taking a picture of my quiz team with the travelling trophy.

I ~ Instrument - clarinet-in 5th grade only.

J ~ Jr. High Crush - Kyle Anderson.

K ~ kissing my husband when i've been gone for a week

L ~ Longest car ride ever - that trip to disney was pretty rough a few years back.

M ~ Mom's name - Phyllis

N ~ Nicknames - T (for taylor), One T, 77 T, burrito (inherent root of one T and 77 T), sam

O ~ One animal you like - kitties, animal i like but can never have-manatee

P ~ Phobias - too many to count.

Q ~ Quirks - the main one--i hate when my food touches

R ~ Reason to smile - daisies, quizzing, camp, friendships-old and new

S ~ Song you sang last - 2 cents trying to figure out the title.

T ~ Time you woke up today - 1:30 PM. i had a rough week.

U ~ Unknown fact about me - If I tell you, then it wouldn't be unknown, would it?

V ~ Vegetable you hate - not possible.

W ~ Worst habits - sleeping in, running late.

X ~ X-rays you've had - arm, and i had an ultrasound my senior year of high school because i had funny stomach problems. thats also when i had the upper GI and had the gross barium.

Y ~ Yummy food - cake.

Z ~ Zodiac sign - THE FISH.