With all my love...

Ok. This is a real post. So pay attention. I have this quote on my away message -many of you have probably seen it: ***To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting***

My original post that i wrote out at work had a lot to do with being a hypocrite. and not like the "oh everyone is a hypocrite on some level kind" but the --i can't let my friends all hang out in the same room because then they will find out im not the person i led any of them to believe kind. Here's the problem. I remember (a few years ago) when someone told me they were pregnant, and asked me to prepare our "christian" friends for the news, so that at least this person wouldn't at that time feel judged. I think, and this person can testify to the fact that they were instead showered with love and support because it didn't matter. She was our friend, and no matter what happened, or happens to this day--she is loved. Many of the christians i know--not so judgemental as you may think. Sure, they stand up for what they believe in, but honestly-its your own conscious that makes you feel guilty. Not the christian. If you profess to be a christian, and hold to a christian value system then YES-other christian people will tell you when you do something not in line with your own professed christian belief. THat does not mean you are being judged..it means that someone is trying to hold you accountable for your own actions. I hold my non-christian friends just as accountable as my christian friends. So to all of my friends--stop lying. Just be who you are. Figure out what kind of person you want to be, and then don't change who you are to fit what you think other people want you to be.

Ok. So that might sound harsh--but its been edited about 4 times, so you got the mild version. here's the question(s) of the day--the serious real question: Do you feel abandoned in some area of your life? Are you lonely? Are you hurt in a way that you've never told anyone ever about? Do you feel lost? If you can trust me: please share. Maybe not in detail, or in a comment--but yes/no. If you are willing to share more-please do--just be honest with yourself. Then be waiting for the good news I have for you in an upcoming post (and the answer isn't just Jesus). Know that no matter where you are right now in your own life-you care cared for by me (and Jesus). Nothing will ever change that.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEL!!!

do you remember?

Do you remember how hard jr high was? lately, there has been so much talk about kids growing up faster. here's the deal-they don't. jr high is still amazingly hard. your best friends are still your worst enemies. i get reminded of that every day and i am thankful for it. Jesus loves jr high kids. So do I.

I guess my life is boring.

Ok. Maybe not to me, but I don't post because I don't think the things that make me SO happy even entertain most people--so I kinda slack on the posting. My husband complained about this, so now, because you have nothing better to do:

Last weekend--st. louis all star team--fantastic time was had by all. driving home in the snowstorm--and making up a story about some people getting stabbed in the gut--that was good times too. Oh, and the TERRIBLE parodies of christmas songs by randy and jesse were fun times as well.

this week--umm...i babysat for the wrights monday night, got called in to work at classic cinemas over my first christmas off in 8 years *i really just want to get out of debt--this better help*

Quiz practice tonite--more terrific than ever--as far as the quizzing itself goes--i couldn't tell if i was at work or practice with the stories being told in the down time. Pray for my kids. They need it.

OH!! HIGHLIGHT SINCE THE LAST POST: MY WONDERFUL AND AMAZING HUSBAND BOUGHT ME ROSES!!! HE'S TERRIFIC AND I LOVE HIM.

Thats all I got. Hope everyone is enjoying december.

Hump day.

Welcome to my hump life actually. Within the next two weeks, I will finish almost all of my training and be all alone in the world of social work. Today, the girl who i have been working with (and im inheriting the cases) was out sick. No big deal except for the fact that umm...we had planned separate things for our days and well, I had to do both of our full days of stuff. And some of it was stuff I didn't know how to do. And yeah. within the last 24 hours--at least 3 of my cases have turned in to total drama. Like drama i am not qualified to deal with. Its frustrating. I mean challenging. I still had a good day though. It was busy and way crazy, and made me wish more than anything that these were completely my cases or not at all...since i still don't have all the info on what was done most recently. But it will get better. Transitioning is always hard. And my supervisor told me she was impressed with something that I did...so that made me happy--like i can totally do this social work thing. So today was hump day (the uphill part) and it began the transition into hump month. I'm sure by say February--i should know whats going on. :)

Now its off to quiz practice--something I totally know everything about--oh the release. :)