The solution.

I just thought that since we seem to be confusing everyone, I should tell you that as of 2:14 (shorting after posting on totogirl) I changed my signature to look like this *sara* thus making it possible to tell sara and sara apart. You are all welcome.

Life, as we knew it.

So, monday Scott and I went to help his brother Joel and my bestest friend (joels wife) Rachel move to their new home. Its so stressful to move to a new place, so I am very sympathetic to this new adventure they have begun. Life as we knew it is officially over. We are now grown-ups, having moved away from our comfort zone to begin life in the real world. Before this week, Scott and I could visit them in Kankakee for some sense of security. Now we will be visiting each other in totally unfamiliar surroundings. I even felt a little regret helping them--if I hadn't taken this job-we would have moved together. Crazy how things change. It's scary really--if you look at this time last year-and what's happening now--its hard to be excited for the future. I am hopeful. Tomorrow scott and I are going to the nazarene church to see if we can find some people our age.

The highlights of Tuesday--My mom and one of my grandma's came to visit-so that made me a little happy to have company for the day. Scott and I went grocery shopping and got some yummy stuff. Thats happy too. Now, I must sleep for tomorrow I actually have to try and work.

In other super exciting news--Group publishing has selected my church to host one of the VBS promotion parties this spring..which means I get free VBS product, and I get to do some networking and hopefully give the church an even better VBS reputation than it already has. YAY!! (its the little things--I really wanted to do this) YAY!!

What a sad day

So, I'm minding my own business-bored out of my mind (scott was at work...no friends), when all of a sudden, I notice Bands Reunited is on VH1. Well, its better than the news so I put it on. And it just happens to be the New Kids on the Block episode. I immediately begin picking out who I would take to the reunion concert...and would you believe 3 out of the 5 new kids said NO to a reunion concert? Those self-centered jerks. My new favorite new kid is Jordan--because he said "sure-it's for the fans" so I love him. Joey just lost his spot in my heart (selfish jerk). Also-just so everyone knows, Jordan does NKOTB covers, and I personally would love to go see that. All in favor?

Terrorism.

I want to start by saying hurricanes in florida are a tragedy. But its something you can make sense of, so sorry if im not sympathetic to the fact that the news is full of hurricane stories when we spend less than 5 minutes addressing the recent terrorist attacks in russia. we had the world up in arms on sept. 11, and before that...spent countless hours reliving the horror of the Oklahoma city bombing. Put the two together, and we've got the terrorist incident that occurred last week in Russia. Over 350 dead, 450 more injured...and it barely gets 5 minutes on the news. I couldn't sleep saturday because i was so upset. now--that doesnt make me great at all..but it just seems so senseless...all those poor kids...and families. so i am upset. still. its just so sad. the attacks are a response to a recent election--makes you be glad no one will blow you up regardless of who takes office here after the election.

always here.

well, I can't sleep. to everyone who likes to stay updated on my life...skip to the bottom. or keep reading it is encouraging for everyone...but today its personal--this is my encouragement to one of my oldest and dearest friends. (you know who you are...)

My dear friend, I wish that I could be with you now, that we could be at steak and shake, that we could cry, and know that together everything will be okay. to turn tears to laughter, and jokes to deep philosophical discussions that have shaped both of our faiths. While I am still forever searching--i still find these truths to be universal. God loves us. Nothing can change that. Jesus died for us. Nothing can change that. We will hurt. God can hug us...metaphorically and through our steak and shake friends. I know that right now is a time in your life when you don't want to hear about God. You are angry at your circumstance, and above all--hurting so deeply you feel it will never go away. I want to tell you I am always here, nothing will ever change that. Every life is marked with pain. Some more than others--right now, yours more than most. but you do have some things you can be thankful for-family, friends (ahem), a place to sleep at night, food on the table, and all the other cliche encouragements you can think of.

Your hurt will fade, and there will be another-it will be harder to open your heart, but there is always something to be learned from each relationship. To trust now seems impossible, to believe in someone, even crazier. But it is possible. Don't give up hope. I will see you soon, and we can laugh, and cry-and talk about boys, Jesus, work, the meaning of life, and why all of a sudden, after of a quarter of a century do we discover that we know nothing. I love you. More deeply and powefully than you can even imagine. (and God loves you more than that...though I still don't have science to prove it..thus your struggle continues).

On another note--if you ever feel hurried by life and want to spend some time with God..(and if you have a fast connection and sound..preferably) you should check out the site below. Shout out to the catholics who have been doing this for years! I find that it relaxes me and makes me feel refreshed.

http://www.yfc.co.uk/labyrinth/online.html