I don't care.

I don't care what legend says to be true. In my heart I still believe in his goodness. If only someone would tell him the truth, hug him and love him. We could get rid of all that evil growing inside him. I'm willing to help. I mean seriously folks. Loook at him.

Does he look like he could really be the villian of the story?

Giving

I found out today that the church where i coach quizzing doesn't pay for the quizzers. The pastor and his wife do. The church is so small, it doesn't have a youth budget to cover that stuff. Once we get caught up on our bills--i think we can afford the $15 a month for these kids at the district level. I guess the parents were going to buy the jump seats too--not the congregation. I have to figure out a way to get this church involved. Its the responsibility of the church to encourage/affirm/take care of/ its members. Anyone wanting to help send some kids to nationals--let me know (this means you former quizzers and people involved with quizzing that knows how important nationals can be-its where scott and i met--i think--right rachel? Bobby Van who?)

In other news--to drain even more of your money (as i know you donated to the nationals fund) Jeremy and I are also looking for fundraising ideas and donations to keep the cost of EC camp from increasing by like $75. next year.

My quiz portion was found--but not where i left it. curious, i think so.

ode to my quiz portion and other ramblings

Oh Quiz Portion how I miss you. I can't believe someone stole you away. You were highlighted so beautifully and had such a majestic nature. If it had been up to me, a strip search of every person attending the quiz would have taken place to return you to me. But instead-you are with another. I then found a new love--a smaller, black quiz portion-and I soon grew to love its multicolored chapters although never as grand as yours. THEN SCOTT LOST THE NEW LOVE-and I am alone, and portionless.

Anyway: I'm bored. about a bajillion years ago (or like a week) i was tagged:

7 things I plan to do before I die:

Get a masters degree
have kid (s)
Get a house
learn sign language
cook thanksgiving dinner
defeat paper mario without help
write a book

7 things I can do:

listen
coach a quiz team
make cookies
sing in the shower
dance in the rain
help others
play DDR in public without being embarrassed

7 things I cannot do:

eat raw meat
go to bed early
rollerblade without breaking something
travel the world (no dollars to do it)
watch anything scary before bed
cure cancer
build a teleporter

7 things that attract me to another person:

Eyes
Smile
sense of humor
belief system
compassion
calf muscles
laugh

7 things that I say most often:

I know, right?
I totally heart ___!
no for real now.
i can do what i want
you don't know EVERYTHING!

I'm sure theres more-feel free to leave them in the comment section as i can't think of what they might be.


7 celebrity crushes:

Paul Rudd (curse him!)
William H Macy
Michael J Fox
Steve Zhan
Johnny Depp
Rupert Grint
Hugh Grant

7 people tagged to continue the fun:

Megan
Scott
Melanie
Ryan
Lexa
Rachel
Joel

Alright all. Have a good day. I'm going to memorize Romans chapter 4. GRR. And think of ways to make my quiz team happy. And maybe look for my missing quiz portion. We'll see.

Micah 7:7

I was frustrated. Had a lot to say, to a lot of people. Found this verse instead. I hope it means something to someone. If not--well, it means something to me.

I posted several different versions--Read them all, if you like a certain one--let me kn0w why.

Micah 7:7

But as for me, I will watch expectantly for the LORD; I will wait for the God of my salvation. My God will hear me. (New American Standard)

But as for me, I watch in hope for the LORD, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me.
(New International Version)

As for me, I look to the LORD for his help. I wait confidently for God to save me, and my God will certainly hear me (New Living Translation)

But me, I'm not giving up. I'm sticking around to see what GOD will do. I'm waiting for God to make things right. I'm counting on God to listen to me. (the Message)

worst feeling in the world: waiting for the phone to ring, realizing that every minute it doesn't is a waste of time and probably decreasing your chances.

the weekend.

Ryan, Erika, Joel --you haven't posted in over a week. You should. It would give me something to do on monday nights when my husband is at work and i am bored.

Friday night-hung out with Christy. Watched a documentary I hadn't seen on child stars. Watched the credits to Dickie Roberts so Christy could hear the awesome song. Ate pizza. went with husband to parents house.

Saturday-Summit wouldn't start. Mom took me to meet Jeremy at Barnes for the camp meeting. very interesting--not as bad as usual. Jeremy bought me lunch. that made me smile-he does that. He' s a good friend. Hung out with mom. Megan came to follow me home (to make sure devil summit would make it). Drove Devil summit close to 3 miles. Then megan pushed it off the road as we waited for mom battery dead again (same battery). Mom comes, pushes devil summit with her jeep. Dad comes. Empty jumper cable bag. Dad leaves. Mom proceeds to push. Dad returns, finally devil summit starts. Return it to parents house. Megan drives me home. She's a good friend too :) Scott, Megan and I head to the roadhouse for cheese fries. We go to meijer adn then home.

Sunday-scott drops me off at southside-sunday school was good-we finished last weeks discussion on spiritual warfare. Go to church. Pastor Randy preaches AMAZING sermon on letting God be our passion. Scott comes. We try La Potosina. The chicken isn't shredded. We go to wal-mart and office max. Then quiz practice in the sanctuary to help emmas fear. Kayla doesn't come, but new girl, liz shows up-decides she will join the team. We practice. Scott explains Romans 7. We goof off. We leave practice and head to our new small group-the 5 love languages (for couples). I've wanted to do that series for a long time, so i'm glad that its a new small group this fall at southside. Go to church, pastor jay has returned, but pastor randy preaches again. a lot more bible-study-ish and less passionate than the morning, but some people like that. Some people introduce themselves to us (Kathy and Lonnie i believe) after the service. Pastor jay and nick (worship leader at church who directed EC camp one year) meet us at monicals after the service for some good food. I love being a part of a church community again. I can't wait until scott can come in the mornings too--i think he will really like it.

Important things today: finally had my interview with Lutheran Social Services. I think it went well. Hopefully I will know tomorrow (but for sure by the end of the week) if I got it. Had hotdogs with Christy at Weinershnitzel. Missed my exit, got home late. Scott left immediately for work, not getting to enjoy his hotdogs because i was late. called a screen printer. found out i can get quiz shirts made for under $15. very pleased. watched tv. watched first and second round of storm. Watched CSI. typed in blog. Now I am returning to the couch. Oh yeah, and I developed a fever to match my crappy throat. (curses to poor throat immunities-why are throat sicknesses the only ones i ever get? not that i want different ones, but seriously--every time someones throat might hurt across the room mine gets infected).

Life so far today.

Ok. first of all, everybody pray for Mark and Leah Garrett, their new baby Seth, and the rest of the Reynolds/Garrett family and the doctors at they look to find the answer to whatever may be wrong with Seth.

In other news--on my way to pay champaign/Ford counties for the right to substitute teach I got lost. and i felt a little sicky-so i used my 2 emergency dollars to buy a taco bell pop which we all know that i love. while there, i also got a call from LUTHERAN SOCIAL SERVICES and i have an interview first thing monday morning...so I never made it to the regional office because if this job works out, I wouldn't be able to substitute anyways. So yeah. Pray for that.

I'm happy because Christy is coming over tonite when she gets off work since both of our husbands are at work until late. It should be a good time. I'm really glad that we've finally (after like 5 years) become friends outside of camp.

Also, pray for my friend Gina. Shes going through a really rough time and she needs some God hugs.

I think thats the news for now.

Congratulations!

Congrats to Mark and Leah Garrett as they welcomed their newest family member this morning!

Congrats also to Shaun and Melody Moyer who welcomed their new little girl today as well!

Baby Mania--I tell you what!! I'm really happy that both babies are healthy happy newborns and will be praying for both families as they adjust and grow.

Thursday september 29th

Is the NEW season of smallville. Scott you were totally wrong. it's so not over.

Check in Out Here!

Thats really all I had to say, but it brightened my mood.

Platform 9 3/4

My mom, gram, gram, and brother came to visit today and took us to chilis for lunch. i was sad for i wanted roadhouse and it was closed. it was a good time, and i am lucky to have a family that loves me and feeds me.

Scottie and I worked on quizzing quite a bit...im trying to decide if adding a sunday practice in the sanctuary will help, and also if one friday a month with the south zone really is a good idea. Man, it just seems like quizzing is getting so expensive. its totally worth it--but its the parents im worried about.

I got a call for an interview at a bank today. It makes me nervous, because I want to know what southside is offering first--because I really think that doing all these things (quizzing, camp, childrens church, NYWC) are what God wants from me, and my passion is such that there is no way I could choose between them. Of course, if we can't pay the rent thats another issue entirely. God provides, right?

Sometimes, at the craziest moments, i remember my invisibility cloak worn often this summer, and wonder if it hasn't somehow slipped back around my shoulders. It's odd to feel that way after so many good days (since friday at least) but its how i began to feel tonight, right around 11 pm---invisible and lonely are different, right?

Have a good tuesday everyone. and keep us in your prayers.

On a day like today...

Friday was fun. Went to IHOP with hubby, melanie, and the fish-- yum to that.
Today was our first district quiz. My wonderful and amazing kids took 2nd overall (out of 12 teams) and placed 7th and 9th individually. They did so fantastic..they totally are my heroes.
After all that fun, we picked up melanie, went to taco bell (it was like a freezer in that place for real) and then went to visit gram and hung out with mom a little bit--now im waiting for scott to wake up and drive me home as he was taking a nap.

Did i mention how totally terrific my kids are?? im going to suprise them and show up at church tomorrow to watch them get their awards. :) YAY!!

hmm.

well, im sittin here, with a million things to say about life, Jesus and all the other stuff most of you apparently find fascinating: instead i'm just gonna go ahead and add this adorable picture from our trip to iowa a few weeks ago. thats right-we're all sexy beasts-and that park was pretty awesome. I miss my best friends-but I know that they are seeking God just like we are, and I am praying that things will work out for them in a mighty way.

Here's to forever friends-my true partners in crime. Theres only 106 days until christmas.

Annoying little voice.

Well, i've done it. I've decided to jump in-and if i fall flat on my face in front of everyone i respect-so be it because thats what God wants. Beth said I can call her in the middle of the night if I need to...i have every phone number known to man for her...but still...how do you know that annoying little voice is God??

Also, I love when people read and comment on my life. Its the whole reason I post.
And about the rest of my day:
Interviewed at DSC (someone hire me already!).
Husband took me to Panera--I will love him forever (not because of panera but man it helps-that place is superior tasty!).
Went to Danville. Closed savings account.
Met with Pastor Jay, saw Nick and Pastor Randy in passing.
Returned movie. Cried when they didn't have Mario Baseball.
talked on the phone.
went to quiz practice. I'm so glad I'm not in junior high. its way too much drama.
talked on the phone some more.
came home. wanted a burritto, ate some spaghetti.
talked on IM. researched rotational model sunday schools (not for sunday school).

Ok. Thats it.

*gasp*... so sara worries about things too?

Yes, she does. All day long I have been trying to post about whats on my mind. All of my worries, fears and anxieties all come down to trusting God and not wanting to let other people down. I have spent a lot of time the past few months offering what i felt was wise counsel to several of my friends. I honestly love that they trust me and my opinion enough to seek my judgement. However--this new opportunity has just come into my life in that GOD-REALITY was I was so eagerly seeking a week or so ago--Can I let God be GOd? Can I follow the very ideas about faith and trust that I have encouraged others to seek? Do I have the faith? Will I let my worry overtake me? I spent over an hour in prayer today. For those of you who know me--you know this is extremely rare. I do pray--but its usually not for an hour at a time--I did not allow myself to become distracted (which was really hard--rachel knows the prayer) and spent time seriously trying to hear God. The thing that kept coming to mind--i kept shoving out of my mind in the spirit of "I'm trying to listen for God" so what if what kept coming to mind was God? It's not the first time I wouldn't have recognized the call. But its always scarier to follow God than to ignore him-even if it pays off in the end. I'm only a risk taker when I am "camp sara" or maybe "quizzing sara" and maybe that in itself is the answer I needed.

Good times...

So, friday we started the moving PROCESS. It is really a process because with both of us working, and everything else going on, we were totally not ready. Anyway--recap of friday-hung out with timmy, scotts car caught fire, went to IHOP with Scottie, Ryan, Timmy and Hollye. Saturday, got the truck, loaded some stuff, packed some stuff, went to arbys, unloaded some stuff, unpacked some stuff. Went to the roadhouse with scott, ryan and hollye (Timmy had to leave). Went to Meiers, Hollye got us some fun memory foam pillows came home put away more stuff slept on clean sheets. Today-got up late. Decided not to go to work at the theatre in danville ever again. Showered, talked to mom-devil summit is back in commission and as soon as we can get to kankakee to get the title, it will be ours. Talked to scott. Talked to gram s. watched some scrubs and ate cheese fries. Scott will be home at six, then we have to take the truck back, go get some more stuff we left behind and who knows what else.

I am really happy with our new place. I need to find a job this week so that we can paint the apartment. I hope we stay here for a long time...because its a really good deal so we should be able to save some money and get some stuff paid off.

I feel really worn down. Its not just from moving. I have been so tired the past few weeks. Part of that is all the emotional strain of trying to move, saying goodbye to rachel and joel, getting new jobs. its like starting life all over--and thats really stressful (especially since we've done it twice before in the past year and a half).

Anyway, im gonna go unpack a little more before scott gets home...I hope we can get some POP.